i've just finish some packing..looks like i have to empty this room by tomorrow annd move some things to some other place because it the semestar break..
but i'll be staying here to run my research project(which can't help feeling nervous about because there's people that i don't feel excited being around) in another room..

anyway..so how's life peeps..(bajet perez hilton aka macam ramai org bace post ko)

it's been one hectic long, hardcore semestar that takes a lot of my spirit and enthusiasmm..

i've been busy, feeling alot of things..

i've been avoiding to think about some things lately, and it sure turned out fine but

today all the things i've been avoiding to think just come revealing itself one by one..

god i'm such an emotional drag..i wish i could just handle my feelings..what a drag..

and then i went out to get some peach tea..

and then it come to my senses of how stingy i am..

i am a stingy person..in terms of feelings..i don't share much and i don't give much, and it's very difficult for me to take some in..

i'm a selfish living stinger, i like walk around not wanting to be bothered by this kind of things, i don't have a big heart.

untill recently i realise how much i was hurting by all the people around me..

it doesn't even matter how i feel, it's just that how is it possible to be feeling the same thing again and again when u're supposed to be turning 22 this year..

i'm supposed to grow up like i plan..

i need to embrace the time i had, be a better person..

share, be affectionate..

and i still haven't move slightly away from the real me..

i need to sleep.