i've just finish some packing..looks like i have to empty this room by tomorrow annd move some things to some other place because it the semestar break..
but i'll be staying here to run my research project(which can't help feeling nervous about because there's people that i don't feel excited being around) in another room..

anyway..so how's life peeps..(bajet perez hilton aka macam ramai org bace post ko)

it's been one hectic long, hardcore semestar that takes a lot of my spirit and enthusiasmm..

i've been busy, feeling alot of things..

i've been avoiding to think about some things lately, and it sure turned out fine but

today all the things i've been avoiding to think just come revealing itself one by one..

god i'm such an emotional drag..i wish i could just handle my feelings..what a drag..

and then i went out to get some peach tea..

and then it come to my senses of how stingy i am..

i am a stingy person..in terms of feelings..i don't share much and i don't give much, and it's very difficult for me to take some in..

i'm a selfish living stinger, i like walk around not wanting to be bothered by this kind of things, i don't have a big heart.

untill recently i realise how much i was hurting by all the people around me..

it doesn't even matter how i feel, it's just that how is it possible to be feeling the same thing again and again when u're supposed to be turning 22 this year..

i'm supposed to grow up like i plan..

i need to embrace the time i had, be a better person..

share, be affectionate..

and i still haven't move slightly away from the real me..

i need to sleep.

ok..

this is viral..i've been trying to cut out my caffeine consumption lately because..it all seems wrong and then bende tu mcm recalcitrant and stays in ur organ because it's a xenobiotic. ok enough bout caffeine.

anyway what is viral is my memory lost..i think this is critical..i forgot almost everything.. i just have no clue..every single thing people recall me back of what i did i can't remember..

i got out of my car wanting to grab a box of milk and then i went straight in 7 eleven..pushing the door, and then i step in passing through the ice-cream container and then i forgot what i'm there for..i forgot what i'm buying..

and then i grab my keys, walk to the parking area and forget whether i've taken the keys or not..

i forgot what she said just now, and i kept on asking the same question. i forgot to take the grabage out eventhough i tell myself every second i am about to leave the room. i forgot what the notice on the board said that makes me do things the other way around..

i forgot the name of the protein in retrovirus that makes it undrgo proteolysis to produce new proteins eventhough i've read it 20 minutes before.


i don't what to do..i've been fish instead lately to get good proteins if that help. i wish it would help..

ow my god..ow my god.

don't go assume things..

asked first before u hurt people feelings just because u decided that i'm wrong.