fly

there's a time in my life where i would
always turn around and look back just to make sure if i'm
on the right track..

and most of the time i am..
atleast i think i am..
i know it's not possible to be right all the time..
but i do that..
i really wanna be right all the time..
sometimes wut people say or wut they think really bothers me much..
and i would makes sure that i don't think that way but i do..

so i swallowed all the bitter things that comes
eventhough i know how ridiculous that is..
i swallowed it because people think its okay..
because that's what evryones doing..
and being different sometimes scares me so much..

i used to fit anywhere.
and i used to belong everywhre..but sometimes it's different..
like rite now..
and i try so hard untill i don't know if i'm becoming someone else.
unable to fit in bothers me sometimes..
i don't know if it is what we called immaturity
or even insecurity

but i have to feel like i belong
atleast somewhere..
and it hurts to see that u don't belong
in a crowd full of people having fun..
i told myself that they're just lame
or they just pathetic and fail to notice wuts inside
of me..

but the truth is..
i'm not even sure wut is inside of me..
anxiety or just loneliness..

ok i may sound like a pathetic loser rite now..
but i just had the worst day ever.

just hope that things can let me slip
away sometimes..
wouldn't it'll be great if we can just fly to somewhere
else like the fairytale peter pan..
he travel and fly to places leaving wut he had.
and things change when he got back..

i don't wanna be peter pan..
i just wanna fly like him..
it'll be better if things change when i get back..
but becoming better instead..

fly away will be nice sometimes..