virus.
an obligatory intracellular parasite
which means they need a living host in order to multiply.

they're not even a cell, and not really living except if they infect a host
cell then they show a living organism property..
more like a thing..like you don't really live but you'll live
once you get the right cell that you infect..
and in order to do that you have to have the right
receptor to infect the host cell.and the host cell needs to
have all the requirement for you to multiply..

more like this thing that happen around us..we're just someone else.
a virus..nothing.unless when we found that special thing that matters
in our life..that we treasure so much..it can be a serious boy-girl thing,
family relationship or friendship..we can have them all..but not everyone have all of it..just not everyone..
and when you don't have one of them, you look forward to another one..
like when you don't have that family bond, you look forward to make friends or search for love partners..
that's my hypothesis.
that's what i think..

but the thing is, what happen when you don't have the family bond thingy,
then you fail in finding the right friend..like you do not belong anywhere..
and that's horrible..
the worst thing that can ever happen to people is not having anyone
and leading a pathetic empty life..
that's why people have hobbies i guess.
a source of indulgement.
like someone i know..
you call that pathetic.even i called it pathetic.
but they're not really lucky in finding true relationship..
like us or anyone else..
and it's the same way when you have something so good then
you finally lost it..
or it just happen to slip away..
n that sucks..
a lot..


ow my god! i can't believe i'm sitting next to the same guy that's
drinks in his large bottle the last time when i was sitting beside him..
and he's doing it again..
gotta take a picture to share.that's just spoils the mood.
fucking hell.

and another bad news, hari ni ade night class at 8.15..
tak dapat buke ngn geng2 usrah..
bru je ingat nk jalan2 jap g umah kak ayu..
shit!

i haven't had a conversation with my sister for the past
few weeks..
the last thing i remember is she yelling at me from the phone
and hang up..
it's actually normal for us to do that..
but it's weird when you one of us just went silent and disappear..

still no plans for the weekends..
and my life is still falling apart.