ok..
that was weird somehow..
i just don't get that..
that kind of reaction..
kekadang it feels like you don't quiet get the people here..
wutever malas nk pikir..
ke aku yg tak patot react cm tuh..
like when ko tak tau cmne ko kne react..
you're like confused..totally..
maybe bende2 cmni matters kowt untok aku je..
suddenly i feel like i don't know myself anymore..

anyway i'm moving on.again..
there's like this time yg ko btol2 wish u can say something about
some matters or things yg happen infront of you but u just don't
because malas nk pnjang2kn cite n takot people don't understand that..
aku slalue rase there's this communication problem that occur..i dunno.weird..
and for the first time in here aku finally skip one class..
nobody knows..
like different thing happen when you're in matric..
when i skip one class ngn diana in matric people actually notice..
and then, i will get this various message saying 'pemonteng tegar'..
or wutever..
i miss that times..

i guess its different now..a lot of things different now..skang kat
cyber room just finish english class..i hate to say this but sometimes
i feel that every other people punye course lgi happening and fun..
like my academic communication classmates get to go to pulau pangkor, and redang
next week to study biodiversity there n her course is science sekitar..
totally fun..mmg laa mcm bodo je blajo pasal penyu tpi best becoz u get to travel..
n we on the other hand have to go to normal lectures and pay attention during virus lecture because u gonna so pay for it if u don't get anything in that lecture..
i mean beside the fact that it's and important topic it also happen to be taught by miss kaliavani nadarajah yg vogue gituu..
i hope she doesn't read this..
it's actually fun though..
i get that she always so serious with that scary vibe but her teaching
skills is also rare and i understand what she's talking about..
like the whole time..and i'm beginning to like virus because of her..
or i myself hav become a virus....i hope that's not true..

the thing is sometimes in lectures, in lab or in a room where it requires a lot of attention from you,i just kind of overthink..the whole thing..
mcm in biology cell lecture hari tuh, aku begin to wonder like how the buffer really works in ur body..pastu i imagine like there's this chemical thing in my cell or something that cannot withstand the acidity crap and unfortunately my system kind of fluctuate and i suddenly passed out..then i started realising back that i'm in the lecture hall..u know like ally mcbeal always fantasize things..
except this one is much more serious..

i dunno why..
it happens these days...
maybe because i'm a moron..
but i'm not..
smalam bru je pas kne curse ngan nadia sebab
tak jadi kuar dis friday which is tomorrow
sebabn ade class..she so funny when she do that..
like tetibe there's this text saying 'fuck you' or 'biatch'
hahaha..like she's the boss and could be the smallest boss (in size)
bodo.x brubah..i wonder how other people react when she did wut she did..


cek mara tak sampai lgi.shit!
i hope they know wut it feels like to be the only first year
student here yg blom dpt bli anything in the name of pleasure
because they fail to get the mail here faster..
and it's not like i don't know,brape bnyak mail in a day vanished or lost
because of their irresponsibility..was that even a word?
i know i complain a lot but i'm just sick of a lot of things..
you spend every morning looking at the window in ur room wondering when will
this crap ever going to end..and you put this fake smile in ur face..
just to make u believe everything will be better again..
walking the road listening to every song there is in your playlist as loud as u
can just to get urself taken away for awhile..
and you see this pizza ad that you wish so much you can share it and have
it rite away with the rite people..and you always observe the people u're talking to
because u want to know their reaction so much like an insane freak, so that u don't feel like they don't understand wut you mean.because it happens all the time.and u actually wait for people even when you're not that type..
and u turn when people is leaving because maybe they would want to say goodbye..
but they don't..it's weird in here..people just tend to just come and go without
saying goodbye..i mean i did that..all the time.. i say goodbye..
and everyone deserve one..
a simple 'see you tomorrow' or 'bye'..
it's not that i'm a psycho freak that suffer out of a goodbye disease but
sometimes it just good to hear people say that..like you matters to them..
wut am i saying..
and this always happen lately..like i'm in the middle of blogging and i don't know wut i'm saying..
shit!

and rite now i'm listening to big bang..i know! thet're hot..
wonder wut is really going on wit diana senior thingy..