i went in the shop, and make my way through..passing by some shelve i grab a can of latte..

what a day..

flipping out two one ringgit note, i put it on the counter and went back to my car.


i took 1 sip of the drink and take a short breath..how complicated things are lately.. and if it were someone else's life it won't be as complicated as this..

sometimes i wish i could just fixed everything..i wish it could be simple just like shooting a bird with a gun..

but it's not just any bird..it's an eagle, and some sparrow too..

and in my hand there's no gun.



i wish my words could reach people..could actually make them stop..

but it didin't..i scare people away..i'm just like a scarecrow in a pigeons farm.

i can't fix anything..it's like standing in a crowd and not moving at all..ape yg aku nak grab eventually slip away one by one..

sometimes things i never expect happen..one day u though the sky is blue the next day it'll never be the color it should be..

almost choke on my latte i put it away for awhile..figuring out how to deal with a man that don't seem to see the point in anything..


i drive and went into a printing shop,mase nak bayar denga lagu KRU yang :

'wo ai ni. i love u aku ccececinta padamu'

mase nak bayar tuh aku tergelak denga die nyanyi cmtuh, org kat kaunter tuh pon senyum..


some people can just write a song without knowing what it means..

just like when people do things that they don't really mean or know..

i don't want to be that person..the person that don't know what i'm doing..

that's a terrible thing that could happen..doing something that they don't know

so i'll try survive this thing because i think i know what i'm doing..

this is just so difficult sometimes tapi Allah takkan berikan sesuatu yang Dia tahu hambe die can not carry it off..

so off i go..i should go and change the world.

i look at the rain outside and my heart felt like it's going to rain to..

that feeling ..the kind of feeling you feel when it's sunday and ur parents are sending u back to ur boarding school..

and u feel so alone and that it kills u so much to walk..the heavy feeling again..

i shud survive..and pray hard..

this is so twisted..i am twisted.