surviving

you know..
sometimes i wish i could just be stable.

put together with my emotion.

because i'm the one who have to be like that..

i don't get to be scared or lost..tapi eventually aku got lost without people's guidance and help..

i don't ask for help..because that's just how things goes..

tapi things happen because of my own mistake and i got lost..

and there's no one out there that could just hold this hand and makes me feel better again..

but i guess i have to atleast try move on..

i can do this..

sebab kite ade God to pray to..

i mean atleast Salman Al-farisi survive his journey in finding the right religion..

his been searching for that for like 30 years or something..

so i don't get to give up..

bile kite fikir balik mcm mane those people before us yg survive as a muslim and manage to become a good one, make us want to be able to be like them..

they're strong because of they believe in..

and i want to be like that..

i know i'm not even close to that right now..

tapi atleast i should try..

so today i spent tyme working my ass off understanding the pcr reaction..just wished i can finish this subject on tyme..

it seems endless..

i have to score on this paper..

i need to find that happiness once again..

that satisfaction..

that glimpse of feeling i haven't been feeling for quiet a while..

i just need to..

i should get back to it now.