been reading my previous post..

realised how high school i sounded most of the tyme..

anyway, i've been working on with some project, got passed datelines, reports waiting to be submitted ..
i'm just super busy and along the way i did get cranky and sometimes hostile..

i realised that.

it happens.

a lot of things happen the past few months and i don't feel like talking about did..

sometimes i do feel that this world will be a better place if people could just
do their job and handle their responsibilities well..

and the world would also be a better place if people could just give a point of benefit to other people

it's not that difficult you know.

the world doesn't revolves around you, you don't get to be mad all the tyme.

you just have to get into the situation and handle it well..

i've been running out of time for a lot of times and sometimes i'm just worried that the things i'm reaching wouldn't be in my grasp and the things
in my hand will fall away somehow..

i just wish i got it all somehow..

i just want to do well.

i want to be capable..

just not sure if i'm already there.

enough that's all i want

there will always be this tyme in ur life that u can't describe ur own feelings..

for me, it's not new..

i always have a problem in describing my feelings or me..

i don't like to be treated like i'm nobody, so i try..very hard in wutever i do..

by the end of the day, i questioned back, is that the only thing i want..

like u are doing something for a purpose, but along the way u figured out that's not the point..

u just don't know where to turn from that point.

it's like u're trying so hard in achieving something tapi u just don't know what is that something and does it matter so much..

i'm always confused..

and i hate that..

i wish i could be cristina.

well-determined, and capable of a lot of things..

i thought i could just be capable by being sabrina..

i failed alot..

and i hope that everything else won't fall apart..

because i can't..

not rite now.

maybe i should get myself focus and things wuld be better..

i'm not stable, i'm not capable enough, i'm not anyone, i'm not smart enough..

i'm just not enough..

what happens when people just start to realise that most of the people that they are living around them are people with no sense?

i mean seriously.

would'nt this world be a much better place if everyone have some kind of sense..

i mean it's not that difficult..
u just have to think on whatever you do..

like, jgn menyusahkan org, or atleast felt guilty bile ko da did something behind people's back, yng terrible..

don't they like have a sense..

anyway i'm still trying hard motivating myself being a positive person inside out..

it's a tough world out here, and all i need to achieve rite now is focus in study..

i have to atleast be smart, so that i don't hate the world much..

people come and go, and feelings come and go too, but i will not let myself fall apart..

i just need to be cristina for awhile..

ok untill then, got to go through some notes and texts..