i'm at the library now..
so sleepy..
if only there's a matress and some pillow here..
i'll definitely rush and arrive in dreamland.

there goes my dreamland..
i was just doing some excercise for this saturday exam..
general chemistry..
i don't know wut is so general about that..
more like complicated chemistry..

anyway i'm listening to this hand down just to keep me awake..
this exams means so much to me..
i just wanna score on this one..
after i got so sikit on biology cell paper..
i got so siket..
trust me sgt sikit..
rase cm my life is all over the place..
dgn exam result yg tak brape membanggekan, u know living alone
and all..klw living alone but you still get good results then i guess it's okay..
tpi bile markah tak ok rase lgi alone..like you have nothing to look
forward to living in this huge cold university..
kekadang rase cm nothing's working out..
assignment ade a few yg tak usik lgi..
smayang pon kekadang tak khusyuk..
isit tringat stuff yg happening around je..
bebudak group lame, da lame aku tinggalkan since that tragedy.
god. pastuh people starting to ask now why i don't hang out with
them anymore..i hate that question, i hate to answer that!

'mane bebudak grup ko?'
'mane kwn2 ko?'
'nape tak gi skali ngn laila?'

takkan aku nk ckp wut's going on..
rase malas..aku pon xtau la ape point diorng ask bnyak kali..does it kill them so much to just shut up about it..cm irretating n makes me feel like i'm really alone..
tetibe all this drama makes me feel like i'm still in high school..

yesterday there's this girl that sit beside me and she start asking why am i alone..
pastuh tnye nape arituh aku tak gi class..pastu she went like 'aiyoh taktau, klaw ko tak masok class nnti ko xleh amek exam'..
aku cm wtf..pompuan kepoh ni. rase cm nk tampo ju muke die..

aku cm look her in puzzle..
and then she went again 'asal bebudak grup ko bole je dtg klass awal'..
aku tros went like 'ko bole dudok tmpat lain x, sebab kwn aku lgi sorng nk dudok sebla aku..seat ni aku cop utk die..bole kan dok tmpat lain?..aku nk dok sebla kwn aku laa'..n i was not lying..mmg pon seat tu untok syaza..

wutever.. i shud continue studying now


i just have to have something to be happy about..
i really hope general i mean complicated chemistry will work well..
tpi cm biase ar musti rase ngantok jap lgi..
when is this misery is going to end..