gipsy?

i've been travelling a lot these days..
anyway, skang ni pon aku bru balek dpd shah alam
jmpe maryam..
ok let's introduce her,
maryam or yam is my bestfriend since we're in mrsm..
she's one of my gang back then..
and together all with another 8 of them..
we're very close the 9 of us and now
it's been six years..

wutever anyway.
i've been travelling alone..
mcm2 org aku jmpe..
the taxi driver's were nice..
aku travel dpd bangi smpai shah alamm n then gi klia
n then g klcc..
yam pon ikot aku je(sebab si bangang ni tak tau tmpat)
anyway it was exciting in the beginning of the journey..
cm rase best sgt travel jaoh2 alone..
rase cm u're somekind of traveller or gipsies..
tpi bile nk balek rase sedih..
cm u're about to leave this thing yang u love and
return to the pathetic empty life u used to had..
mcm the end of a good movie yg people wish to have a
second one..
i dunno..

and people go around asking where you're from (mostly mkcik2 sebab
diorng mmg ramah)..
and u keep lying and lying like you're belong nearby there sebab klaw aku ckp aku dpd bangi musti diorng terkejot gle sebab jaoh gle..
cm taxi driver semalam yang isit tnye aku tak takot ke travel sorng2.
pastuh aku pon mmg tak tau nk jwb ape..
actually i'm getting used to it..
being alone..
malas nk ajak bebudak kat sni..
rase leceh sgt..
tak tau knpae..
it's like i'm living for myself now..
it's me, all or nothing..
dudok dlm train,lrt, bus..
rase free takde org yg ikot..
kekadang aku rase cm tak nak diorng ikot coz
kite cm bru je kenal like 3 months, i don't think ade
org nk do such favours temankan org gi jaouh2...

last night was great..
aku jumpe yam and pick die up g klcc..
we talked and talked..masok every store yg ade..
a lot of things kene cath up sebab da lame gile
tak jumpe..die pon cm change..
she still the old maryam yg bangang that i used
to know tpi ade a thing in her that actually change..
i dunno..like somehow she's stronger inside..
she's not that cute, sweet, guilable, full of laughter anymore..
i guess she used to have this hard time alone..
uitm made her be that person..
she's like tougher inside..
we chatted and stayed up that night..
die cm ckp it's difficult..
and i guess i totally get it
i understand i guess..
sebab maybe the same thing happen here..
and bile nk pikir balek hoe cold this place is..
aku takot aku akan jdi cm diorng one day..
like jdi cold and self centered jgak..
wut if this place make me into that person..
that will be not wut i wanted to be out of me..

ntah.
aku gi tido sane sehari je pon..
because i need to study for exams..
and wan yacoob would totally dissapointed klaw student tak perform..
anyway i shud start reading his notes...
die bgi notes pasal hard acid and soft acid hari tuh..
name notes tue enggang same enggang pipit same pipit..
it's his way of describing the haRD AND SOFT ACID..
die mmg suroh ikot die punye way of putting the notes..
he's damn hilaroius..
like all the time..
one time die ckp yg die dudlu pon ade problem in understanding lewis
structure sebab ckgu die not gud at teaching it..haha
and hari rtuh tutorial die bnyak yg buat salah, and die kate kitorng tak dengo ckp die cmne nk draw lewis..
he went like "jgn derhake pade lewis ye!"
i can't believe ui'm reading this notes..