tini called..
she's crying..i knoe i'm not supposed to tell this to people or something but it's not like this is a secret..
i'm not sure wuts going on over there. i mean the only thing that i can here with that voice is she saying that everything is such a messed and everybody bailed and left her out..
she said that she have no one and feel so alone..

i guess the same thing goes around here..
she just can't stop crying.. like it hurt her so much..
she keeps on crying and crying..
and i keep asking wut happen and she still cries..
i guess she's still that little tini i know from last time..
maybe this is difficult for her more than anyone else because she just
that little tini..
i hope things will turn alrite..
she said she's having buke puase all alone..
n she did ask me with whom i will be berbuke puase with..
and i said "dak sebla bilek aku ngn budak gemok seblah katil aku yg bru balek tue"..
n then she started to chuckle and laugh and then went back crying..

you just take time to swallow all this.
it's tough.
but this is the real world..
people just come and go..
it's crazy seeing all this but that's just some fact that we people
have to take..
people like me, like her,like everyone..
it's nasty in the beginning i guess but you just have to have something to hold onto..
just find something that makes you're stronger.
like i hold onto god i guess..
i belive that god'll help me somehow
that's the only real one around here..
that makes me stronger..
and it did..

so for everyone whose reading this out there,
this is not somekind of tazkirah pendek or something this is just something i wanna say..when you like totally lost and was left in the dark and no one is there, just remeber that god is around..
the only thing you can do is pray and believe that god will help you..
just believe in it..
we only have our prayer to hold onto..
just pray..