once upon a time in lala land..

once upon a time, there was me and my childhood friend
playing in the back of the school near the volleyball court
waiting to be fetch by our parents..well not me, i walk back home
she have to be fetch..get the idea?

it was 6.30 in the evening, so we biha and i play near a gigantic
tree is situated by the mushrooms..
i pick up some bijik sage and show her how to cook
in our make-believe-kitchen-stove that we have in our make-believe-home
it was large with big stones so you can lit up the fire to cook..

biha:(incredibly excited) eeihh! ape ni awak

sab: bijik sage laa

biha: besnye warne merah! bnyak plak tue..

sab: (annoyed) alah tak penah jumpe ke

biha: tak penah..(very eager)

sab: hah! kite tau, nah amek bnyak2 bwk balek umah..
nah isi isi dlm beg awak..cpat laa

biha: tak nak laa..nanti mak kite marah..

sab: pesal plak..(annoyed lgi) isi je laa..jgn betau mak awk.
pastue masak laa kat umah..

biha: xpe laa..hah tue mak kite da smpai..

the same thing goes everyday when we play behind the school..
i teach her stuff a lot of stuff..
n she will turn to me when something happens..

n then she move away n i was all alone..
with the gigantic tree, the bijik sage n
the make-believe-stove..

don't get the wrong idea..i don't grew to become a loner.
i'm a happy person..i'm not alone at all..
i just hibernate sometimes..
sleeping and taking time thinking..
some people just think that i dissapear..
but i'm here actually..

so mmg ar tak brape bes lepas tu tpi
life goes on..
cmne it have always been without biha..
kwn ngn bebudak yg isit tnye brape bnyk kete
ko ade..pastu if u have atleast five
then u're in..
i think that was when i started growing up
becoming a liar..
like all the time..

cm nadia ckp "it's becoming u're food, and i'm not proud of it"..
terngiang2 siot kat tinge aku..
i mean come on, bile ko stuck kat the rich girls school
and evryone seems the same..the only thing yg ko bley buat
is survive walawpon diorang tak fun..

n i make friends with these rich people..
n one time there's this girl that sits beside me..
another rich girl..she become my friend sort of close..
you know for a standard 3 student she does brings a
lot of money to school..

she only eat nasi during reccess and no such things
as cold noodles..nasi with lauk n they only serve that
to the teacher..she's very neat and she does all her
homework..she's a very nice friend though..
like one time the teacher was going to check our
homework and she knew that i never done it and she
kind of hurried and help me with the calculation..
she did the three pages from behind, and i did another
two starting from the very front..
n then voila, my homeworks done..she did it..
there are some nice rich people though..
although she did ask me how much car i have
in the beginning and i wonder how do i list five..

it's okay i guess at that time even when you feel
like you pretending the whole time..
but it was nice having her around..we would sit on the bench
after class and eat ice creams..she even bought one for
me because for someone who have a lot of money having
to buy ice-cream all the time for your friend is nothing..
i mean it's not like i let her pay all the time..
she just insist..

i do feel bad sometimes but it seems alrite for her..
and anyway that was once upon a time ago..

now it's here in doom land..