crap

ow my god..
things hav been really damn hectic lately n
i know i whine alot but this time i think it's okay
to whine some more, because i'm like so
scrute, like big time!

okay so it's embarassing to even write this out
so i'm just gonna say this hypothetically..

i dunno wut happen , but i was busy thinking wut am i
going to do with my boring and pathetic life
when suddenly there's like a light shone to me giving
me this gift..
and it was a gud one..
then suddenly it was gone..
yeah in no time..
i haven't even open it yet, the gift
and it's gone..

then all i get in the end was hope because
the gift that was brought to me was taken away
by something in no reason..

i'm beginning to feel like my life is some sort
of joke..
i felt so ridiculous..
and alone..

u know wut else..
then, the person around you get wut u
want most in ur life..
die didin't even bother to knoe wut it
felt like to be you..

x sangke in the next 24 hours after feeling so happy,
i realise my life is doom..
it's just not fair..
okay, mmg la sometimes things go wrong
and it's normal tpi this time, bende tue cm happen
all at once..

i guess some people just get all the luck..
suddenly rase cm loser plak..

damn it

why does things always go well with someone yg camtue..
xtau ar tpi kekadang rase cm die trying to
rub it in people's face with wut die ade..
and of course by the end of the day aku musti realise die don't mean
it that way, die just not matured enuff or x pikir ape yg org len pikir..

masalahnye dgn org cmni is that we just have to swallow wutever
yg die buat coz die mmg slalu x pikir n x mean it..
isit nk kne excuse die je..
mcm bile ko babysitting this child, n ko xbley nk marah2 diorang cm
org tue coz bdk2 xpaham n xtau ape yg die buat tu
salah ke betol..
itulah diri die..
xbleh nk ckp n buat die see like wut u see..
because i tried bnyak kali n mmg die xpaham,
makin salah faham lgi ade..

sometimes aku agree gak bile ade org cm rase die desserve a snap or
something..it's just not fair bile ko feel tired ngn die
at the same time ko kne babysit die punye feelings..

ow my god..
for one second dude
tolong laa sedar yg u make me tired
n stop taking things cm bende tue sume senang,
grow up,
it's not a request it's an order!
please..
maybe many people tak tau
ur true colours tpi u're just wut i see in my eyes
which is pain in the ass..
it'll be easy to hate you man..