to a friend

dear friend,

it's been a while since i know you..

we kind of grow closer..not so close but closer..

n how i wish for that never to happen..

i wish at that time where we were becoming closer,

i wish somebody could just freeze that moment and tell me to go back because i was making a mistake..huge mistake..and end up regretting it..

which wut i feel now..

to tell you the truth,i thought it was okay and better when i knew you as one of my aquaintance,not someone who is always around but as an aquaintance..

it was better then..at that time knowing you as a person that i know from far was nice..

atleast u never hurt me and make me think so much back then like now..

in fact,

u never hurt me when i knoe u as an aquaintance..

u make me think, and feel like i do not matters in ur eyes like the other one of ur fren..

and it is not such a big deal for me but it hurts when i do take u as person that have to be appreciated..

atleast at that time i do appreciate you eventhough u don't have the same respect for me or my feelings..

i do..

i treated you as a human, and as a friend,not because of being nice or because it is
ethical, it is because u're a friend

to me..

and i know it does not matters to you on how i feel because its obvious that u don't treat me as if i'm in your circle..

u make it clear that i was not in your close circle, and i get that because u're not in mine too..

just the fact that i treated u like a friend..

being there all the time and sometimes letting myself become vulnerable to let you in..

it was the biggest mistake that i've made because i'm not vulnerable or decent..

i'm difficult..

so, incase u kind of not know that fact..

well, this letter is for you..

i mean it from the bottom of my heart..

i regret being that close to you..

i do..

we were better of being aquaintance..

perhaps it shud stay that way..

from:

an aquaintance