i swear to god i tot it was 2 hours and then it was 1 hours and 30 minutes..

and then she said u got another five minuts and

i've realise that i'm doomed..

it's all in my head..

i got it.

i know it..

but i just didin't get a chance to write it..

this is the doomest moments of my life ever..

i can't even describe it in words..

ow my god.

ow my god.

like for a moment u thought u got all of them under control..

the next thing u know is that u're just stuck in this black hole and u have

no way out..

i just can't believe this..

i work so hard for this..

i work sooo damn hard!

just finish the aeromonads part of microbe pathogen diagnosis notes..

i was listening to this song from cinderella stepsister ost..

just reminded a lot about the whole drama i've been watching two months ago..

it's a great story.

felt like watching it again.

anyway

been sitting here all day studying my ass off the gene thing in prokaryotes..

god..this is just so difficult..

never stop thinking of home..

how much i wanted to be there rite now..

this is harder than i thought it is..

i was so hungry don't eat anything the whole day and

then i finish another part of the arabinose operon and went down warta to grab

a cheese burger and some coffee..

yeah my little pathetic life..

i was so hungry that i couldn't stop munching on the counter and while driving, and i start thinking when will this ever ends..

wutever anyway, if this is gods will that i'm on it..

no matter how difficult this will get..

i'm on it..

no matter how many cheese burger and improper meal i'll have every single day or

how occupied my tyme and life will be..

i'm just on it..

if this is wut i have to do to finish this studies, then i'm on it..

i'll hang in there..

i can do this..

i'll move on.

and i'm on my next chapter

back for good

i'm in ukm.

in my room..finishing some reports.

it was a 5 hours drive getting here..

and yeah keje and stuff still bnyak blom settle.

just hope i'll finish them on tyme..

i was driving in the entrance of this place and it felt so weird..

i mean a few years ago i never imagine that one day i'll be driving alone in this dark hollow place to be the first person yg reach this place to settle work load..

i never imagine i'm leading this kind of life anyway..

it felt so empty here..
it's so quiet..

mcm u want to be somewhere else at this tyme so much tapi u have to holdback for this tyme..

i'm just sitting in this chair infront of this computer while listening to taylor swift country bits trying to finish wut i have to..

it's okay..it's for a good cast..

i'll get through this..

raye

ok i'm alive..

i am..
it's just that i've been busy..
u know exams and stuff and then suddenly it's raye..

i do received some comments from a people that happen to read my latest post..
and then from nadia..

hmm aku alive laa bangang..
i mean besides the facts yg aku receive an email from her mcm nk ugot bunoh pon ade, she really is something u know..

mcm ko tak bole get away from this little prick once ko da get to know her..
i mean seriously same mcm dulu.. tak brubah.

anyway life goes on..
a few days ago aku hampir2 crash my father's red myvii punye side mirror sebab reverse laju sgt..

aku ingt lepas la space kecik tu skali telanggar..
naseb takde pape...driving pon tenga nk improve..

kat jb plak tuh..hmm maklum je laa..

raye was tiring..ade some people yg datang taknak balek2.
aku tau la ni raye tapi rilek laa bknnye kite tak pena jumpe..

kalaw umah aku da mcm umah ko baek aku tak yah balek umah..
sumenye nk ikot order ko, susa la weh..

anyway kind a busy rite..tak bole write much..

i'll write later,

bubye