another piece of shit

ok let's just pretend this..
pretend that all of us are not out of our freaking mind

would you people actually listen to stuff like kristal, keindahan pantai, or perhaps the new version of tomok singing crazy in love..

no right?

i know i won't..

but they putting it in a new form of band at letting these losers perform the
night at the dinner party of kolej keris mas..

yeah tell me about being gay.

and people actually listen to them..like thay somekind of the new block in town..

and it's crazy!!

people are crazy!

and it's out.

out there..

like ticking time bomb and they love it..

they put on bottles of hair gel on the fringe and swing guitars..
and it was ridiculous

there's this proud face and that full of pride expression..

and i can't help myself from laughing my ass out..

we were sitting in the seats of the hall and i was reading at that time..

and i CANNOT even start the next sentence when these people doing the rehearsal..

because it's fucking wrong!!

the whole thing.the bass, the vocal, the arrangment,

that stupid face..

like u come from
the recycle kids that got thrown out from akademi fantasia 4!

and we all know how much that sucks!

i just cant help it..

i got to write it down, because it's so shameful and full of shit.

okay..name band die chorus..

and i dindin't even know which part of the song is the chorus..

HAHAHAHHAh..
u suck!!

u guys suck!!

and it was a bad idea putting them up for the performance..

a huge mistake..yeah.

anyway it's over..just the thought of it makes u want to write it down..

moving on..i've just finish a book.
the undomestic goddess.

another chic lit..

and the book is fine..

just what i need after a long week of busy and full of schedule thing..

it's realaxing..just to lie down on ur bed, not doing anything and read this book..

makes me wanna be in love..

fine i'll take that back..

it feels nice reading that's all..

i just better stop writting.wut ever anyway

save me, not you

aku bru abes due paper mid sem exam termasok today..

bnyak lagi bisnes yg kene fixed..
and i'm running out of tyme..

dgn dinner punye meje lagi tak settle..anyway i'm not going to talk about that today..

because dinner kkm suckks!!

and evryone yg attend that kind of thing is sick!

sometimes i just find myself pacing in and out..
just taking my own tyme..

anyway aku mkan nasi lemak letak ayam ngn nasi tomato tadi..

rase mcm bru dapat kuase quincy balek mcm dlm bleach tuh..
lapo gile dow tak mkn satu ari..

da gile ke beb!

anyway everyone's seems asleep..

and aku just tenga figure out nk crash kat mane this weekend

becoz ahad takde current..

mcm bodoh pon ade..

it's not like i have a house near here..

i was just walking down the street and then i realise how nice and quiet this night is..

not scary at all..

like totally away from evryone..

i sometimes wish that i can be invisble for a moment..

so that people can't see me or talk to me..

or you don't have to meet their eyes and tell them all the things that
they need to listen.

tell her everythying that only makes her feel better..

but not the truth..

because lying everyday, kills me so much..

and it's not enjoyable anymore..

especially when u did that right infront of her face..

it's sickening.and the biggest liar award goes to me once again..

because the truth is i never feel alright with you..

you're everywhere and sometimes when u're not everywhre

u're absent all the tyme..

and i hate that both..
u being absent and u're being everywhere,

maybe i just hate the idea of having you around..

i wish i could just say it..

just tell u that u're the safest person i ever met..

u're safe..

with every single thing that evolve around you..

u never know how this world can be because u live in that empty
room of yours..

u never try come out..

u don't know wut it's like..

u blame people for wut happen because that's the safest way to live things..

u shut urself in ur nest and wake up trying to think that the world can do u no harm..

because that's the safest thing to think about..

and thinking that i always enjoy having around makes u safe but the truth is, it's not like that at all..

u just used people without even realising that..and yet u're still safe..

and sometimes i do that too..use u..just to find a way out when i'm in a mess..

so stop..

using me and being used by me..

because u don't how unbelievably unpleasent it is..having u as a friend..

because i don't feel save being around you..