sick

okay..
so i've been sick..
for like two days including today..and hell yeah it hurts damn much..like the whole body parts..hurt..beside the 40 degrees fever, i also been told that there's this virus in my sarcolemma that causes my muscle to be in such pain..the back really hurts..and its not slip disc like my mother thought its just muscle sprain because of the virus..i knoe, it sound weird but that was wut the doctor said..

so with the virus in my muscle and the 40 degrees temperature i might just have to deal with it and survive like everyone else..and yeah i can't sleep last night because it hurts so much..my back hurt..in any position it just hurt..so last night i've been spending my time bearing with the pain and staring at the ceiling like a weirdo..but i'm starting to get better this morning after a visit at the clinic..i ask for small pills as usual because u knoe i can't swallow a large one..i can't even swallow a medicine in the beginning, that is one of my weakness..the doctor seems annoyed..wutever its not like i'm not paying for the medication..it's true i can't swallow large pills..its not like i never tried..i tried okay..i will end up throwing out all the food i've eaten..it just comes out..the pills..
the doctor said 'be positive, you just have to try some more'..
i did not only got consultation about my fever i also got consultation about my not so positive attitude..he even asked me how much i scored during my last semestar..
so kepoh..

God..hospitals, clinics even drugstore really freaks me out..
okay i'm gonna get some more rest..

over...

ok the whole two semestar programmes of going to classes and being in tutorial has vanished.. i mean not exactly vanished, just end.. totaly end!! and imagine how gud it felt like.. it felt better than falling in love.i'm sooo happy..this is like the part when jane gray of x men wake up to see wolverine..so awesome..

so here i am, in my best pyjamas ever, drinking coffee writing, listening to some old songs, this is like paradise when you have gone through some serious geek experienced..i'm like so not doing anything..
there is like totally nothing in my mind rite now..

so i kind of freak out when i first arrive here..the back of my house has turned into a GARDEN!! i mean the whole dried grass, and empty area thingy has become like a botanic garden.. dad has done a serious planting and all of it turned out good.he really have the green hands..

rite now, i really get wut i wanted the most..being away from all the people that makes me tired.. after all that has happened in this whole semestar has really make me grow n learn.. perhaps giving and giving was a bad idea after all..because in the end it meant nothing to the people u gave most..wutever anyway!!!

LET's celebrate the victory of the gurl who survived matriculaton with people that thinks she's a total geek! people like that stupid undertaker nadia and that monster waheeda..